You know those times when you see something or hear someone say something that aligns rather well with your own thoughts for the day? I like those moments.

Today it was while reading in the Psychology section of Barnes and Noble. A group of people sat in a circle, apparently discussing some book they had all been reading. The conversation moved around quite a bit, but eventually came to a point where the question was asked whether or not you would want to know about your future, had you the ability. Several people rather quickly responded, "No, definitely not." There was even a " I wouldn't want to know anything about my future".

..... Would you?
I remember when I was little I would be reading, and get so curious about the outcome of the story or where a situation was going that I couldn't help but flip forward and read just a few sentences to satisfy my itch. An interesting thing to remember vividly considering that very idea translates well into my adult life. I am always wanting to know what is going to happen! I have trouble just being still, present, satisfied. I want to know what is going to happen! I want to know where I am going, and what it is that I will do.

What does this mean then, to me? Probably something about my lack of faith. Honestly, I believe things will be just fine and I will move forward and left and right and will find myself just fine. At the same time, I struggle with a sense of the purpose of my life. I want to do something important. I want to do something significant. Sometimes I feel like I just want to get on with it! Get on with this story of mine and get a glimpse at my big picture!
Really though, that just seems like a waste of thought. I am here! I need to appreciate where I am.

All the while I am feeling unsettled and in need of change. It really is about that time. Choose a direction! It won't be straight the whole way, not a chance, but you won't get anywhere if you just stand here staring at all your options. Just pick something and go! Passions and values will follow. You want to make a difference? Seek opportunities that help others.


Hm... so much stuff going on in this head of mine lately, I could likely ramble on and on and on...